Question meme

[fraternaldevotion]

Sasuke broke 18K over a week ago (so he has more comments than Kaworu now, but just barely) and I need a distraction while I study for my last exam tomorrow. IT'S BEEN A WHILE, so no one can judge me.

Question meme for Sasuke and Kaworu/Liberty! You can ask me about Kite/Valiant if you want, too.

You're free to poke me if I forget to reply, though.

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[fraternalorders]

I THOUGHT IT MADE SENSE.

Uhhh yeah, Itachi probably feels closer to Sasuke now than ever before which is saying something considering how close they were before. :T One of the reasons their relationship started to get so codependent was repeatedly sharing traumas, both from their memories and in Aather, so sharing a trauma of this size was bound to kind of make that even worse. And it has. Though I think the attitude about the persona and such that Itachi has gotten from Bonten and Knife recently cause him to feel kind of too frustrated to hang around Emerald much, which also contributes to him spending more time with Sasuke because Sasuke understands why Itachi is upset. Since. He was...there...

Though right now he can't hang out with Sasuke and sleep at Onyx so idk what he'll do. Possibly spend day 128 planting seeds for Lloyd's quest. And then he might go to the library and read for a few hours. No, he won't sleep.

Anyway, that was a tangent. His feelings for Sasuke are largely the same as Sasuke's for him. Including the guilt and feelings of failure about what happened in Ryner's heart. Itachi has made some effort to let go of his guilt because he told Sasuke he would but it's HARD, and he still blames himself. And he is very defensive of Sasuke right now, particularly when they criticize what Sasuke did after Ryner's heart. It's not so much that he thinks Sasuke should have killed Dream or that he wanted him to do it. He didn't. He was incredibly worried about him when that was going on and he was glad Lloyd stopped him. BUT considering what had just happened, and what Sasuke's life has been, the way Sasuke reacted is pretty understandable. And he pretty much anyone who feels rage directed at the personae have a right to feel that way. He finds what he perceives to be a lack of understanding for Sasuke and other people who might be in that situation kind of frustrating because those same people seem to excuse the personae on the basis of not having a choice. So he's getting to the point that when it comes up and someone says Sasuke "can't be allowed" to do that he gets really irritated because it seems like focusing on the wrong problem. And also he blames himself for Sasuke having those kinds of triggers in the first place.

Itachi will always love Sasuke as his little brother first, even though their feelings have gotten more complicated and unhealthy, in the end it's all based on the fact that Sasuke is the brother he loves more than anything and who he wants to protect. In Aather he actually does see Sasuke as an equal and as such the desire to protect has kind of evolved into wanting to support him, too, though he is still intensely protective.

He is probably still a bit fail at expressing how important Sasuke is to him, I think, but like you said the sexual aspect kind of gives him a way to do it. Which is incredibly unhealthy, but he has so many feelings surrounding Sasuke he really doesn't know what else to do with them. In most of his memories he's repressing and ignoring his feelings so he has no context for how to properly deal with and express emotions. He is better at being honest in Aather and actually does make an effort to communicate his feelings sometimes, but he's really not so good at it, and with Sasuke in particular it's difficult to express them in a healthy way because their relationship got so fucked up by...everything Itachi did. And the trauma just kind of made all those feelings more intense.

So basically Sasuke is the person Itachi loves most and trusts most and he would do anything for him. And it might be easier to trigger Itachi's yan for Sasuke now, though I don't think he'd get as impulsive with it as he might have in the hours directly after the heart game. Mostly he will just be over protective (more so than before, if that's possible) and defensive of him.

I HAVE NO IDEA OF THIS MADE ANY SENSE. I am scattered tonight and I went on a couple of tangents, but w/e hopefully it is coherent in some way :T

Is Sasuke taking the truama of Ryner's heart game better or worse than expected? Or is it pretty much what you figured would happen?